Wendy's Life

2002-04-10T20:42:00.000-05:00

Too long since anyone has posted *raaawwwrr* so I will post the lyrics from my fav song from the same group that did the worried man. Hand transcribed since lyrics are no where to be found!

Scotch and soda, mud in yer Eye
Baby do I feel high
oh me oh my do I feel High
Dry martini, jigger of gin
oh what a spell you've got me in
oh my do I feel high
people wont believe me
they'll think that im just braggin
but I could feel the way I do and still be on the wagon
all I need is one of your smiles
sunshine of your Eye
Oh me oh my do I feel Higher than a kite can fly
give me lovin
baby I feel high
though people wont believe me
theyll think that im just braggin
but I could feel the way I do and still be on the wagon
all I need is one of your smiles
sunshine of your eyes
Oh me Oh my do I feel higher than a kite can fly
give me lovin
baby I feel high

Folk Songs???? I'd recommend the whole damn disc. Yah got that right yah whippersnappers! Good music is good music. If it touches you, does anything else matter?

2002-04-04T13:40:00.000-06:00

How far you go in life depends on your
being tender with the young, compassionate
with the aged, sympathetic with the striving,
and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because
someday in your life you will have been all of these."
--George Washington Carver

I got this as a sig on an email and it made me eyes moist. I have come to realise that I'm a nut.

2002-03-23T02:03:00.000-06:00

Whose resisting? Lemme at 'em :-|

All your base are belong to us!

2002-03-22T12:55:00.000-06:00

Resistance....FUTIIIIIIIIIIIIIIILE!!!!!

2002-03-12T15:06:00.000-06:00

FAMILY
Thanks to Jeanna for sending this my way

Family means sharing inadequacies, imperfection and feelings with each other and still loving each other. But even when you set out to love, you may not always be a likable person. And when you're not perfect, forgiveness for yourself and others becomes important. Then you get up the next day and start again. It is a process, like the opening of a bud. It is a flowering, a blooming and blossoming.

Bernie Siegel

2002-03-11T15:34:00.000-06:00

I was taking a shower saturday night before we went out. I had the water so hot that it almost scalded the skin. The kind of shower that leaves the entire room in a haze with steam , floating so thick in the shower itself that there is a fog rising from the floor a couple feet in height. The water just pounding the base of my skull and neck. Watching the steam form little rivlets as it gathered and condensed. The rivlets seem to draw the condensed moisture toward them or perhaps the path of least resistance was followed. The viscosity of the water versus the surface tension of the tile. As I sat there near dozing watching this occur it dawned on me that perhaps it would be better not to know the truth of things, not understand what makes things the way they are. Am I happier that I know and understand what makes the mercury on a piece of paper stick together and when seperated move back together or would I be more content to just enjoy the 'magic' it appeared to be when first experienced. Its too late to make that choice and it isn't something we can control anyway. So its all mute , isn't it ? :p

We make a big deal of things because they are important to us. We need affirmation of some kind to reinforce our own feelings and sense of worth. To be shown that you are important is needed or you begin to wonder why you even care. Eventually, you will no longer care and that's a cryng shame.

Rejoice in the pleasures that you do experience;great and small. Bask in the warmth of those that do reinforce your worth. The rest of life will resolve itself , whether for good or ill. It really matters not. Life is but a joke. Sometimes funny, sometimes not. Did I tell you how wenderful you is yet today? :-)

2002-03-11T13:58:00.000-06:00

It's amazing to me how simple the little things are, and yet when the little things cease to exist, how big of a deal we make to get them back.

Little rays of sunshine you yearn for after a day of rain.
Patters of eyelashes on your cheeks from someone you love.
A pat on the shoulder after a day of hard work.
A warm bath towel after a long shower.
A reminder from a friend of your worth....

Egad.

2002-03-04T12:48:00.000-06:00

Unstable condition,
A symptom of life,
Of mental and environmental change.
Atmosphereic disturbance,
The feverish flux
Of human interface and interchange.
The impulse is pure;
Sometimes our circuits get shorted
By external interference.
Signals get crossed
And the balance distorted
By internal incoherence.
A tired mind become a shape shifter,
Everybody need a mood lifter,
Everybody need reverse polarity.
Everybody got mixed feelings
About the function and the form.
Everybody got to elevate from the norm.
An ounce of perception,
A pound of obscure.
Process information at half speed.
Pause, rewind, replay,
Warm memory chip,
Random sample, hold the one you need.
Leave out the fiction,
The fact is, this friction
Will only be won by persistence.
Leave out conditions,
Courageous convictions
Will drag the dream into existence.
A tired mind become a shape shifter,
Everybody need a soft filter,
Everybody need reverse polarity.
Everybody got mixed feelings
About the function and the form.
Everybody got to elevate from the norm...

2002-03-04T10:46:00.000-06:00

Thinking...

It's strange the paths we take in and out of each other's lives. On one hand it's disheartening to lose someone- or at least misplace them. On the other hand, the person that comes along to fill that void is a blessing and usually helps mend the heart or laugh away the old pain.

You can't help feeling confused and sad, lost and hurt when someone that you love decides to step out of the picture for awhile. There isn't much you can do to reel them back into your life. All you can do is throw your line in and wait for the day they decide that what you're offering them is good enough. In the mean time, you enjoy the life you have, and the company you surround yourself with - because it's good enough for you.

And that should be all that matters.

2002-02-26T16:19:00.000-06:00

Love ridden, I’ve looked at you
With the focus I gave to my birthday candles
I’ve wished on the lidded blue flames
Under your brow
And baby, I wished for you
Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed
And I wanna crawl in with you
But I cry instead
I want your warm, but it will only make
Me colder when it's over
So I can’t tonight, baby
No, not ‘baby’ anymore - if I need you
I’ll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we’ll only have to wave
My hand won’t hold you down no more
The path is clear to follow through
I stood too long in the way of the door
And now I’m giving up on you
No, not ‘baby’ anymore - if I need you
I’ll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we’ll only have to wave
No, not ‘baby’ anymore - if I need you
I’ll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we’ll only have to wave

2002-02-15T22:49:00.000-06:00

How fucked up is this

Tonight I was walking back to my apartment when I came across an animal cookie on the cold hard cement.

I had to catch my breath because I felt like I was witnessing a child's tragically lost innocence.

Why I didn't just think "Hey some poor kid dropped their cookie" is beyond me. Once again I will never be able to fully comprehend the mind that is mine.

2002-02-14T11:49:00.000-06:00

Friends are a miracle, of that there's no doubt,
A necessity of life, we can not do without.
When things go wrong and life seems so bleak,
We're tempted to think we can't do it, we're weak.
Oh we will struggle, and we'll do what is right,
But then comes the time when there's just no more fight.
We blink back the tears and we say we're OK.
But inside we think, "I can't go one more day."
Then there's the touch of a hand kind and strong,
And a voice that says gently, "Let me help you along."
"Don't hold it in, let go, let it out."
This is what friendship is truly about.
A friend who will care and isn't ashamed,
To share in your tears, and call you by name.
The friend may not know what you're going through,
But says, "If you need me, I'll be there for you."
Friends who can comfort and help bear your load,
Are worth far more than their weight in pure gold.
Lord, open my eyes, and help me to see.
A part of The Miracle of Friends let me be.

I didnt write it , but I likes it wender. Happy Valentines day schweety.

2002-02-04T11:33:00.000-06:00

DREAMLAND

it's like i'm being carried by the ocean
when i start dreaming of you
and all the currents the moon creates
keep pushing the dream from view

and while i drown in the green
the only thing that remains unseen
is when the time will be that we
will swim together inside your sea

i'm hanging on to the edge of you
with my fingertips digging into the earth
the swirling rapids threaten me
while they pound against the surf

the waves come crashing and wash away
the footprints of those who traveled that way
and here i tread in the ocean i dream
too in lust to realize that you are only a stream.

2002-01-25T02:18:00.000-06:00

As i sit here tonight i reflect on alot of things in life. One being my friends, who mean the most to me who i never get to see anymore. One of them is you Wenday. Just because im not around alot anymore doesnt mean that i dont think of you and miss you. Sappy. Love moo.

2002-01-23T17:48:00.000-06:00

Screaming behind my eyes, feeling of disenchantment

When did it all become lies, is this permanent

Feeling between her thighs, splendor so luxuriant

Can it be that love dies, ecstasy a detriment

Worship exchanged for despise, passion locked in excrement

Mind made pain, purposely driving myself insane

Huddled in my empty shell, survival has become hell

Thoughts bouncing in my brain, heart breaking from the strain

Erection begins to swell, emotion flying pell-mell

Must force self to refrain, seed swirling down the drain

Spent with the coming of dawn, spirit still lying on her verdant lawn

Finding it hard to breath, beauty surrounds her like a wreath

To this one I am continually drawn, no greater than a pawn

More than just a sheath, my soul do I bequeath

Everywhere does such feeling spawn, what will I do when its gone?

(First attempt at poetry in years. Be gentle readers. I skipped the epic idea wender cuz work is about over :)

2002-01-21T14:42:00.000-06:00

Accept humiliation as a surprise.
Value great misfortune as your own self.

What do I mean by "Accept humiliation as a surprise"?
When you are humble
Attainment is a surprise
And so is loss.
That's why I say, "Accept humiliation as a surprise."

What do I mean by "Value great misfortune as your own self"?

If I have no self, how could I experience misfortune?

Therefore, if you dedicate your life for the benefit of the world,
You can rely on the world.
If you love dedicating yourself in this way,
You can be entrusted with the world.
(Lao Tzu)

2002-01-21T14:35:00.000-06:00

HOLY CRAPOLIO

Wow. My brain is all over the friggen map today. I go from thinking one thing right into another without even contemplating the logic of the journey. I don't know if this means I need a nice nap or a nice place to lay it all out so I can examine it. Who knows.

I've been traveling down memory lane a lot lately. I don't know if it's the time of year or what - but it's been really weird. I love reliving scenes in my mind and everything, but I sometimes think I have lost touch with 'today'. Maybe it's because my yesterday seems alot easier than the today i live in. Who said it would be easy anyway.

Does everything I do have some weird failure in it too?

2002-01-19T22:12:00.000-06:00

I SUCK

What has the world come to when all I do is put quotes on my blog instead of some good old fashioned whining and bitching? Have I gotten too good for it? Nah - just sorta busy worrying about things other than letting the world know what I am up to. I am reading the book Cherry by Mary Karr. It is a fascinating book. I'm gonna make you read it, Nug. It kicks ass and that's all I'm gonna tell ya. hehe So anyway here is a quote that I found in this book. I like it.

...We sense there is some sort of spirit that loves
birds and animals, and the ants -
perhaps the same one who gave a radiance to you in
your mother's womb.
Is it logical you'd be walking around entirely
orphaned now?
The truth is, you turned away yourself,
and decided to go into the dark alone.
Now you are tangled up in others, and have forgotten
what you once knew
and that is why everything you do has some weird
failure in it.
--Kabir The Radiance

2002-01-15T18:00:00.000-06:00

Circle the wagons and start heating the irons. Slap hot iron to any wounds and cauterize them; Burn the muthas closed.

Or just duck and cover.

Luv,
Nug

2002-01-15T14:56:00.000-06:00

True.

I try to take one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me at once.

2002-01-14T21:34:00.000-06:00

IT SUCKS TO BE BROKE

But at least I have my health right? *cough cough cough*... So anyway.... this is just sort of a heads up to the fact that this site might be moving. During that time, you may not be able to access it and, while that will suck, I'll be saving a few pennies in the process so it's all good in the long run I guess. My email address will probably be changing too, but I am gonna see what I can do about that. When I move the site it will probably look a little different too. I think that sucks, but maybe it's time for an overhaul anyway. It sucks that times have to come to this, but there really isn't anything I can do to stop it. We'll see how it goes anyway.

2002-01-11T11:20:00.000-06:00

YEP

Isn't it just wierd how a letter or a picture can transport you back in time? It's like they are little pieces of your past that have the unique ability to change the setting to a place you used to be in. Yeah so if that sentence would have made sense .. maybe this would make more sense, but I digress...Right now I am sitting in 1998 land. It wasn't that long ago or anything, but I haven't kept up with the people I shared that year with, so to me it feels like it was 84,000 years ago. Believe me... I look pretty good for aging 84,000 years. Heh. Yep.

Some of my best memories of Minot are buried in 1998. I swear the best thunderstorms that I have been through besides last June was that late spring/early summer. My bed time wasn't until after 4 sometimes - or maybe even when the sun came up - or later. Driving up to the sweetest spot with a bunch of friends in the old Grand Am hangin out dangerously close to a big lightning storm. I only say "dangerously close" because it's what it felt like to me. I am a chickenshit so I'm sure we were relatively safe. hehe... Jamming out to Thunderstruck just because it felt appropriate. :) Running up the block splooshing in mud puddles and being carried back home because we were having too much fun. We totally killed that bathroom between the mud, the hair gel and the 84,000 men that lived in that house. Two out of the three of those were 100% my fault. hehe Canoeing down the icky mouse river and then getting crazy and jummping into the river with an old rope swing. Blech! Beer wrestling. Woah. Joey, Duff, Grant, Kelli, Lisa, Melissa, Tricia....

It was, by far, one of those years I will never forget. How could I? I had a few best friends who helped me through a rough time in my life. I made a bunch of mistakes too - and sometimes I wish I could go back and change it. All that aside, I wish I could tell everybody involved in my life that year how much I think about them. I may have lost touch with most of them, but they're all still creating chaos and dancing up a storm to MIB in my mind. I may not have made it to school much after January, but I would say all of those nights made it worth it.

So anyway... thanks for the email, Joe. You totally brightened up my week. Here's a big old virtual hug to everybody else. Man...I totally miss the Freezer sometimes. HAHAHAHAHA...

Yep.

2002-01-05T01:02:00.000-06:00

I liked Chrome Yellow, still have the book somewhere. Not sure if I've read Brave New World, but I'm guessing so. Will reread anyway for lack of anything better to do at work. Read alot of thomas henry huxley also, interesting stuff if yer into blending science and philosophy or just straight science. Darwin me boy, hows it hangin?

Sorry you didn't have so much fun wendell. With just us playing pool and you sitting there I couldnt imagine it was too intriguing.Maybe next time we play cutthroat or you start drinking :-)
I hope the swimming thoughts settle into a gentle tidal pool of repose and tranquility. Much like I feel right now. Of course if need be I will bite yer ankle to straighten yer tude out *insane cackle* .

Is it just my own shitty mood or does everyone seem a little on edge of late? Post holiday let down? I don't know. Maybe it's time we put our shiny happy faces on, whether just a mask or meant.

If yah have half an hour read Who Moved My Cheese. Its a wonderful motivational book thats actually a fun read.

Well, I'm feeling groovy and think its time to sleep. Love to all

2002-01-04T23:15:00.000-06:00

HEY PRETTY

So yep. Here I am. Friday night at 11:30 bored off my ass because I didn't have no fun at da bar. I think it's my fault anyhow. I sure wasn't being any sort of party -more like a party pooper so it's best that I am here anyhow. My fault or no, I still feel like sheeyat. I don't even want to begin on that subject. I just wanna say KMA. All of yas.

So anyway.. I don't have anything interesting to say except that I got all these thoughts swimming through my head like mad and I don't even know where to begin so I will just choose not to begin and sit here drinkin my wine by myself and listening to some tunes.

I don't need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore
Would you like to see how it feels?
Here it comes, get ready to die!

2002-01-04T18:01:00.000-06:00

speaking of blake:
"When the doors of perception are cleansed, we will see things as they truly are. Infinite."

i just got the aldous huxley book inspired by it.

2002-01-03T14:55:00.000-06:00

Uh Oh A William Blake kick

A POISON TREE

I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I watered it in fears
Night and morning with my tears,
And I sunned it with smiles
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright,
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine, -

And into my garden stole
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning, glad, I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.

2002-01-02T15:44:00.000-06:00

BEEEYATCH!!

I'm sitting here at work, twiddling my thumbs. I am freezing though so it's not as enjoyable as you might think. Everytime my thumbs circle each other I fear my knuckles might simply give 'way and break. That.... would be bad.

The office dog (Joppa) is sitting at my window staring at a squirrel that is up in the tree. She is trying her hardest to use her Jedi mind tricks to make the squirrel blow up. She's trembling all over because she is concentrating so hard. Every once in awhile she gets frustrated and starts making wierd noises at it and moves around the office like she has hurt her brain with all that concentration. Poor Joppa. Somebody needs to let her outside so she can just chase the damn thing. I laugh because the squirrel sits in the tree and stares right back at her. It's great. Animals and their Jedi mind tricks. Whodathunkit.

So anyway - yep.

New Years was fun - thanks for the partay Stepho. The girl is the best hostest. She introduced us to garlic and parsley something or the other on popcorn. I think that was a good idea. It was yummay! I drank a lot and I caused a lot of ruckus because that's what I do best. It was a good time man MUAH! Yesterday I recuperated at home and it was a lovely time.

I think I need some candles and posters and more pictures in here because this office looks more and more like a prison cell everyday. Uh oh... Joppa's eyes have suddenly become focused on ME! .... ZOINKS!

2001-12-31T14:38:00.000-06:00

The path to enilightenment is not gentle or kind.

Along the river, deep within the forest, you find the traces;Leaving behind the fragrant grasses, you study the subtle signs.
The tracks, suddenly as clear as the distant sky, lead you into the endless mountains.
There is no place to hide.

(Tao Te Ching - http://www.human.toyogakuen-u.ac.jp/~acmuller/contao/laotzu.htm )
Heaven and Earth last forever.
The reason that Heaven and Earth are able to last forever
Is because they do not give birth to themselves.
Therefore, they are always alive.
Hence, the sage puts herself last and is first.
She is outside herself and therefore her self lasts.

Is it not through her selflessness
That she is able to perfect herself?

'Who loves you baby?' Kojak

2001-12-31T11:35:00.000-06:00

PHEW!

I don't know if I have ever been more thrilled to see a whole year end. I cannot express to you how desperate I am to move on to a whole new year and get away from the hell that was 2001. Well, that and I am excited to party tonight! WHUTE WHUTE! I have tried to be more reflective in my thoughts about the past year, and so far I have come up with diddily squat to write about. I mean, there is plenty to write "about" but how on earth do I go about saying anything about them? Only to say that 2001 has been the most trying year of my life so far. I know I am not alone in this statement because many, if not all, of us have suffered somewhat since the oft mentioned 9/11. What I am talking about though, is purely personal. My psyche, my insides, my mindset has changed and 2001 leaves me a different person. Whether or not that change has been a positive one is yet to be seen I suppose, but I do feel more in "control" of me and how I feel and what I do. I gathered the courage I never knew I had to persevere through the roughest patches and I've succeeded in those areas that I didn't think I could even begin to conquer. In that respect, I guess I could say that 2001 was somewhat a blessing. I am glad I have had the chance to suffer and succeed because those are the things that have made me into the person I am right at this moment. The ever changing me.

Happy New Year, everybody.

I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.
---Maya Angelou

2001-12-30T14:30:00.000-06:00

Long time no post, Im sowwy.

I love you all. Wenday is my sista.

I cant even think of what to post, i think its the amount of people that are hoovering around.

Today is the big day, Bets is out. **Happy Dance**

Maybe that sounded mean but its true. Then i can clean the house and be in peace.

I love you Wenday, sorry to go off. (K)

2001-12-29T19:32:00.000-06:00

like a warm embrace.
yeah people, listen to your brother! (the one who drives a rig)
and listen to thom yorke: immerse your soul in love.

what else is there?

2001-12-29T17:43:00.000-06:00

Drunken rambling

I love it

2001-12-29T04:43:00.000-06:00

GUY (appellation currently used among cool peeps, or us ....whichever seems correct)

All I have for you is warm fuzzies. You could tear me a new asshole verbally or physically and what would remain is my acceptance and love. I appreciate your intellect, when I thought you were slamming me,I liked it. It showed me part of yourself. I don't mean to sound pompous or like our buddy Narcissus, but I'm real grounded in me. I just enjoy interacting with people. I'm a gregarious muther fuck. I can't help it, I simply love people. My brother, whom I deeply respect and love, thinks people are dumb fuckers that need to be led. I can't accept that, I'm all about the good . I cannot be any other way. I'm astounded by the great gift that is existance. I mean I fucking love it; it boggles my mind, whether its random chance or planned by a superior being. Either way, the result is the same, we get to enjoy this madness called LIFE. I run into a limitation of my grasp of language to explain my feelings. Words cannot convey my joy....there is nothing better than my fellow man.

Your dislaimer, though appreciated for its candor, is not needed. I'm a big open hug.

2001-12-28T19:04:00.000-06:00

I know you were joking; so was I.
This looks like a good time to give the Kristi Disclaimer:

If ever I seem like Im being mean or harsh, I'm probably not. It is safe for everyone to assume I'm joking (because I always am). In the past, people who take themselves too seriously always thought I was mocking them and they always got pissed off. So anyway, although you guys probably know me by now, that is my disclaimer anyway. Have a good night, everybody.

`kristi
"Let all the love inside the world belong to you."

2001-12-28T17:58:00.000-06:00

I think it was probably creative and entertaining. The Narcissus comment was a *TAUNT* or joke. I don't think of Wendy in that way at all.

Although you are of course both vain and evil (inherant in all females) , Im pretty sure neither of you is quite like Narcissus.

I must admit the water is pretty lucky, but please don't stare into it too long. We don't want you to suffer his fate.

2001-12-28T16:12:00.000-06:00

Hi Wendy, how are you? Long time no post. I apologize.

I have a web cam, but only because it came with my computer. I don't use it to take pictures of myself though; I made short films starring Sherlock Hemlock and a canister of Carmex. I thought that was creative, but I guess not. Does that make me Narcissus?

Now excuse me while I go back to staring at my reflection in the water...

2001-12-28T10:51:00.000-06:00

People with web cams remind me of Narcissus *taunt*

I wouldn't think statics are needed to hook up your webcam. I am unsure though, but Id say no.... I would be happay to play with it and find out :-P

I had a perkins muffin (double chocolate mmmmm) this morning and I feel like I ate 3 bowls of Colon Blow; not Good. There are 3 people here again and we are taking enough calls to drop 1 a minute. The IQ quotiant of heldesk is below 100 or they are too fucking lazy to do their jobs. I used to think it was just being worthless wastes of skin, now I am concerned that they are simply too fucking dumb to do the job.

Im in a bad mood. I've been in a bad mood for two days. The top of my neck where my skull attaches feels like the muscles are going to tear. I have a headache from scowling and clenching my jaw.

I am sure this too will pass, much like the muffin.

Blech

Ok...back to normal cheery self. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* RrrIIIIIGht

2001-12-28T00:22:00.000-06:00

Here I am....

Proving the fact that people with web cams LOVE to take pictures of themselves. Currently I have 5 geeky pictures of me. Maybe eventually they will surface on to the site. MAYBE

2001-12-27T22:35:00.000-06:00

YEAH BABY

Mama's got herself a web cam (thanks, Dad!)... be prepared for some postings of pics and the sort. Anyone know how to hook this thing up to my webpage? Do I need statics for that? (Nug...Nug are you out there..??!)

So anyway - Yep. I can take pictures of myself doing what I do best - sitting on my ghetto booty. The ghetto booty that has been getting larger and larger the past few weeks. DAMN YOU HOLIDAY SEASONS... or maybe DAMN ME FOR BEING SUCH A LAME ASS... I think the second one is far more accurate. It's just food...it like...sustains my life and shit, but I don't need THAT much sustaining, I mean for cheese sakes - I did not need to eat that chocolate..or that one..or THAT one.

So I guess I'm not going to beat myself up. Well so I won't be beating myself up in front of the web cam anyway - I save that stuff for private times when only me, myself and I are around to watch. Let us tell you, it is quite the spectacle if we do say so ourselves. We're never sure who wins though, usually it's a tie.

Reading a good book - The Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood by Rebecca Wells. Check out the awesome quote on the main page. This is an AMAZING book. I have laughed and cried and laughed and related to the main character. It's kinda neat. I recommend you read this book as soon as I am done with it. Speaking of reading books, how's She's Come Undone doing lately Steph? Have you lost it in the mess that was once your room? Cripes.

I know there was something else I was going to say but I forgot what it was. OH YEAH...I just wanted to say a belated SCREW YOU to everyone who wished their asses off for a friggen white Christmas this year. It was scary for my family members to drive home this year and it is all your fault.

So THERE.

2001-12-25T08:37:00.000-06:00

I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day
Their old familiar carols play,
And wild and sweet the words repeat
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

I thought how, as the day had come,
The belfries of all Christendom
Had rolled along the unbroken song
Of peace on earth, good will to men.

And in despair I bowed my head:
"There is no peace on earth," I said,
"For hate is strong and mocks the song
Of peace on earth, good will to men."

Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:
"God is not dead, nor doth he sleep;
The wrong shall fail, the right prevail,
With peace on earth, good will to men."

Till, ringing singing, on its way,
The world revolved from night to day,
A voice, a chime, a chant sublime,
Of peace on earth, good will to men!

Happy Happy JOY JOY :-)

2001-12-20T12:26:00.000-06:00

Awww such a sweety!

Yer trying to make me verklempt aintcha?

2001-12-19T14:12:00.000-06:00

HO HO HO

What is shaking? Not much here..well except for the latest exciting news! Anybody who wishes to view the rock in person needs to be at The Sports Page bar this Friday night at 8:30 - 9:00ish. There will be a line gathering up to gaze upon the latest addition to my wardrobe - and life! WUUU HUUUU!!

So yeah, I'm excited!

I am making up lists and checking them twice and then throwing them away because it's too darn stressful to begin PLANNING ANYTHING because... well...I dunno. I guess me and the man need to sit down so I can get some feedback from him and pick a date and carve it in stone. Engagement pictures would also be a good idea. ACK ...

So anyway... on to other things besides my pending nuptuals and all that other jazzola.

Happy holidays to everybody - anybody who reads this anyway. I don't know how much I'll be posting between now and Christmas so I just thought I would get that out of the way. I am taking Josh to Minot with me this year for what looks to be an exciting, eventful Christmas. Either that or it will be extremely droll and noneventful. At any rate, it will be wonderful because I'll be with the people I love. I'll miss the people I love that I won't be with though.

Stepho and Nug *sniff sniff* ... This means you guys. :)

MUAH!

2001-12-17T14:31:00.000-06:00

Wendy is off the market?

Where can I get the same model?

Does the manufacturer have a comparable product?

*PANIC*

2001-12-17T10:17:00.000-06:00

Whute is the word. As i sit here thinking about the situation i cant help but get a little verclempt.

I cannot think of anything better than 2 of my favorite all time friends (we wont go into the whole brotha/sista schpiel) being together.

You dont need me to wish you the best, cause you two will have it no matter what, but im doing it anyways!

I love you guys, may happiness be yours now and always.

Oh yeah, and thats all ill harass about cause im sure you guys are getting it enough :)

2001-12-17T09:23:00.000-06:00

WHUTE WHUTE

inventory guy: Well, I've searched the entire store and girl #110378, a.k.a. Wendy, is missing.

store owner: What?! She's our most popular girl! How could she have just disappeared??!!

inventory guy: To be honest, sir, we see this situation a lot. Sometimes some girls just disappear off the market floor.

store owner:WHAT?! WENDY IS OFF THE MARKET?!

inventory guy: It appears to be....

2001-12-12T09:48:00.000-06:00

SHADDAP

Shut yah's yap or else heads will be rollin'. I'll update whenever I feels like it. :0Þ

Whoot the Geminid meteor shower peaks on Thursday night. I'm not sure if I'll be up to watching this one, as I have a trip the next day, but we'll see. Nothing like freezing outside in the middle of the night with buddies. This time we should go out way far and start a fire or something. The reason the Geminids are so popular is because scientists haven't exactly figured out why this storm exists or why the cluster of debris (or whatever they call the space dirt) shows up. Usually they follow a comet or something. I think.

The whole story is here.

So anyway - I'm going to Chicago this weekend. I am excited - sorta. Sorta nervous for the plane ride, and sorta nervous about homicide, but if provoked I won't be afraid to do it. hehehe

I gotsta thank Steph for being my Cramp Crusader. She has by far earned much respect from every pinch and twang of crampage in females around the world.

There is also a partial eclipse of the sun this Friday. I might be able to see it in Chicago where the sun will be eclipsed by about one-eighth. Yee haa! Check out the sun around sunset on Friday and maybe you'll notice it too! Of course, don't look directy at it or anything, and if you do - don't blame me.

2001-12-11T14:24:00.000-06:00

No posts for almost a week? Thats IT

BLOG BLOG BLOG GLOB GLOB GLOB....blah blah Yada yada

I hear there is a meteor showah coming up this thursday. We gonna bundle up and look at da stars Errr What?

2001-12-06T01:02:00.000-06:00

If i could make it all go away i would in a heartbeat. Damn mutha fuckin cramps that ail my wendamoo. Ill kick em all in the balls. TWICE. Hard too.
I sincerly apoligize for my foul language in this matter, but when cramps think they can just come right in and take ova wenday i get steaming mad.

It will all be betta, and if its not i will take you to the docta myself, love you mang.

2001-12-05T13:27:00.000-06:00

I HURT

It's a time when I am supposed to cherish being female because I have the unique ability to produce life right? ... Let's just say my insides are celebrating and they're having one hell of a party because I feel like crapola! They definitely need to settle down for a little bit so I can concentrate on whining about something OTHER than that!

So anyhoo... My last post was kind of a bummer, even though it was just my philosophy and such. It is true though. I see it everyday. Anyone who knows me should know what I'm talkin about *wink*

Aaaahhhh the life of a disenchanted princess is kind of rough sometimes. I have to do some work now. I gotta be creative and write some sort of sales pitch for something or the other. I'm not looking forward to it because I'm not passionate about what I am supposed to be excited and passionate about. I think in this business you gotta be an actress too - or at least a good liar.

I don't really think I am either of them - although I have a few "friends" who are!

Criminy that was mean. I think I need a nap!

Lots of love to everybody else though.

2001-12-03T15:55:00.000-06:00

Strange how we see each other isn't it. I look to you as a very calming and healthful influence. I know you make me feel less insane and I never get to see this toxicity of which you speak, so its kinda wierd to hear you describe friendship like that. I can certainly see your reasoning when I consider myself as a friend though, so maybe you have a point. And not just the one on the top of yer HEAD :-)

I liked the concert too. Ozzy was Ozzy, which is all I had hoped for( the fact that zombie and mudvayne kicked arse was just gravy). After listening to his music for most of my life, it was really nice to get to see him live. He had retired from touring in 95 or 6(no really), so I had to take advantage of the chance to see him, might never happen again.

No, I didn't wear any of my leather mania outfit. Chickened out! Glad I did, I would have been even more selfconscious than I normally am.

I missed out on the sexual violation part of the concert; dammit. Though its probably just as well.

2001-12-03T11:05:00.000-06:00

GOT ANY GUM?

Wow long time no posty eh? I guess I've been a busy girl to say the least. Driving for hundreds of miles, spending a lot of money on gas, watching some old guys who get paid too much sing songs and dance around the stage, driving for more hundreds of miles and then coming home and being SO TIRED the whole rest of the weekend. Criminy.

And you thought my life was BORING?! What the shit!

So there I was, patting myself down in front of the Security Guards at the Alerus center.
Embarassed?
No way - they get paid to watch stuff like that. They even looked at my butt. "Turn to the side...what is in your pockets"

Beer was $4.00 ... I left that place feeling sexually violated.
If you wanted cash for the beer, you could use the ATM..however if you were one of the crowd participants on the floor, the ATM was impossible to use because it was on the 2nd floor. Screwed would be the way to accurately describe how we felt. Again with the sexual violation.

I noticed the inside of "the center" looked similar to a tin can. Neat!

Rob Zombie made a joke and realized it wasn't a joke...he was just stupid. I don't think he'd be the first to propose we name the state of North Dakota FARGO because ... well... apparently everybody already thinks it is. I felt sorry for the old man, and shoot me for saying so but he just didn't have the pep of concerts in previous years. It was a very good show and his robot dudes were awesome. I wondered how they got their laser eyes to work. Dancing bitches were neat too, although they could have used a little lube in the knees.

The Ozzman cameth and it was good. It was exciting to see someone so important and popular, not to mention old - but the man is aging well and I gotta wonder if his hair is real because it sure looked pretty. He could have gone without the tight black jumpsuit with the gold flashy stuff though. His performance was kickass ... he didn't move around a whole lot and I just figured it was because he just recovered from a broken something or the other.

I got to push people around for fun. That was sorta neat. At the end of the show, Alexa and I stood in the same spot and waited until the crowd cleared to see how close we were to the front. We were pretty fargin close! Only a few more feet and we would have been at the front. Which would have been cool because then I might have been able to see more than just glimpses of Ozz and the "guys". It sucks being short sometimes - although it was fairly easy to sneak in ahead of people because they really didn't care - they could see over my head.

Overall I would say the concert was a success. There was a ton of room on the floor, which means they could have sold more tickets, or not many people bought them. Either way, I am glad I was there (and not just for the break I got from work) ... It was a kickass experience and I would definitely do it again. Thanks to Nug (who didn't dress up Village style, mind you) for the tickets. I love you mang!

Yep. So that's the concert critique or whatever. BONG.

You know, somedays when I just sit here and do nothing, I begin to feel somewhat philisophical and it scares me. Where does all this crap come from?? I've been thinking a lot lately about the relationships I have -and don't have- with people and it amazes me how different each one is. I also contemplated the reasons I keep these contacts going and the reasons I have lessened some. It always comes down to the toxicity of the "friend" in question. Everyone is toxic in their own right. Usually relationships just depend on your immunity to their toxins. If this doesn't make sense, don't worry - I'm not going to be famous based on this whole idea. Besides, I think Oprah cashed in on it years ago.

So like I was saying - I have toxic friends. I am toxic. We sorta bond and repel at certain times and that is what usually keeps life interesting. I think living alone with no friends would be pretty boring because you wouldn't have anyone to piss off and you most certainly wouldn't have anyone to hug. Although there are those friends who you just can't handle anymore because of the way they make you feel. I hate those kinds of relationships. I think I hold the record of suffering through toxic relationships - most likely because I am WEAK. But ... that is just one more thing people have to put up with.

To those of you who put up with my insalubrity - thank you. :) For those who don't - hell, I don't blame you.

2001-11-29T21:30:00.000-06:00

Nutz on your chin

So here i am. Listening to the web radio thingee and mah Wenday is all the way in Grand Mutha Fuckin Forks.
Hopefully having a good old time of course.

Easy E is SupA BONG.
Anyone who doesnt agree just has issues. And not the good issues, like KoRn, but bad issues.

Here is my favorite easy-e song, might be kinda long, for mah 3 ballerAs pleasure:

One and in comes the two to the muthaphukkin three then comes the Eazy
to the other fuckin E playin niggaz life like a puppet and can't dance but
could touch it so fuck it rappers want to dis I'm glad to see `em cause I
rip your fuckin face outta a magazine O.G. gangsta lean now after I shit
your face wipes that ass clean now time to get tipsy and don't want a bitch
if she can't rub the balls like a gypsy. Who's all in? Since you put yourself
on my dick I put my nutz on ya chin...

Muthaphukk whatcha heard I'm more than that a real nigga from the hood
and I'm all that thick as a hicky a picky nigga fittin dickies with bitches
strictly dick-ly many sets I rolled on and killed squeals that told on my
homies they sold on don't ask Eazy shit it's still a hit iz a hit and a bitch
iz a bitch hangin on my nutz like a hair strand hangin there with n'ear heart
and n'ear plan ass out like a asshole runnin to my dick with a rhyme and
a lasso again and again from beginning to end it's your nutz on my
chin...

You couldn't beat a minute of my ass if I gave you sixty seconds tick
tock shit starts I start a steppin E to the muthaphukkin A to the muthaphukkin
Z here's the Y here's the E here to stay after you when I'm through check
me and Rodney King Fuck Tha Police part 2 now back to my friends nutz to
ya nose to ya lips to ya chin real niggaz love us hussies never fuck us the
roughest ruckas fingers couldn't touch us Eazy E's back again fuck waitin'
for a payday get an A.K. everyday is a blast yeah blast a nigga fast knock
his ass get all the cash Who's all in? Since you put yourself on my dick
I put my nutz on ya chin...

"N.W.A. Niggaz With Attitudes, we're underground reporters we tell about,
you know, the streets and everything that goes on, you know, around in Compton,
our area, what's going around around us, we don't know what the fuck's going
around around by YOU, but frankly we don't give a fuck, you know. Most kids
in Compton don't give a fuck who the mayor or the president is you know they're
not even interested in votin'. And the police, you know what I'm sayin?
I say FUCK `EM."

2001-11-28T15:23:00.000-06:00

Yeah....Black Leather Tanker Boots, black leather SEEMLESS pants, Black Mesh bondage shirt with zippers and rings and black Leather jacket. Anyone have a little leather cap so I get the whole village people look going on?

Im thinking the jacket has to go...all leather in GF might be more of a statement than I wanna make. Do you think the latex mask with rubber ball for mouth is too much?

I wouldnt have even thought gay until fuckin shanna said something. Im gonna have to kick her arse.....

2001-11-28T13:37:00.000-06:00

...in one way or another...i'm a bad brother....word to the mother fucker...

Steph, ever since Monday night, I've had Eazy-E in my CD player and I have been rockin out old gangsta pimpin style. Not that there's anything wrong with that. :) I mean, c'mon... EVERYBODY has their weaknesses..right, bootylicious?

Tomorrow is the Ozzy concert. Chances are, it will be a blast and we'll have lotsa fun and I'll even get to hang out with the sister if I get ahold of her and tell her what is up. Getting stuff done is really hard for some reason. I'll have an update as to how the concert went eventually. My main goal is to see Shorty with his sweet shirt lookin like a Village person. Okay I take that back - I just had to say it because it was the funniest part of my day so far.

My Joshua is home until Sunday or Monday, a.k.a. HELL DAY

Maybe I should listen to Eazy-E constantly and learn some pimping tricks so I can keep myself busy while he's gone. Mackin' the bitches, slappin the hoes.

So anyway... yep.

2001-11-25T13:40:00.000-06:00

WHAT THE CRAP

I just posted this long whine fest and it didn't even post it? My god. Even my blog is after me.

2001-11-22T19:42:00.000-06:00

On this day of giving thanks, surrounded by family and in the warm glow of an alcohol induced euphoria, I must take this moment in time to reflect upon how lucky I am. I would try to do so in poetry, but bow to my betters rather than make a mess of it :-P

The first thing that comes to mind for which I am thankful is the people I share this life with. Friends and family make the journey that we all travel so much more blessed. So I thank you guys for being alive; for sharing your lives, experiences and joys with me.

Big Up Love and Respect.

I gotta stop cuz Im a weeeeeeeeee bit intoxicated and am getting teary eyed thinking about just how blessed I am.

If I could get my hands on youse guys you would get such a HUG that I might crack ribs !

2001-11-22T19:05:00.000-06:00

I love the Wenday.

Once there was a good friend to me
Once she dressed up
As a black eyed pea.

Shes funny
Shes nice
Shes thoughtfull and cute
I do have to say her jokes
Are a hoot.

I love you mang.
I just wrote that, can you tell?
You were always the sista with the talent mang. Happy Turkey Day! (L)

2001-11-21T14:09:00.000-06:00

Come here
Pretty please
Can you tell me where I am
You won't you say something
I need to get my bearings
I'm lost
And the shadows keep on changing

And I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
I'm haunted
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head

Don't cry,
There's always a way
Here in November in this house of leaves
We'll pray
Please, I know it's hard to believe
To see a perfect forest
Through so many splintered trees
You and me
And these shadows keep on changing

And I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
I'm haunted
By the promises I've made
And others I have broken
I'm haunted
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head

Hallways... always

I'll always want you
I'll always need you
I'll always love you

And I will always miss you

Come here
No I won't say please
One more look at the ghost
Before I'm gonna make it leave
Come here
I've got the pieces here
Time to gather up the splinters
Build a casket for my tears

I'm haunted
(By the lives that I have loved)
I'm haunted
(By the promises I've made)
I'm haunted
By the hallways in this tiny room
The echos there of me and you
The voices that are carrying this tune

2001-11-20T13:36:00.000-06:00

TRIBUTE TO MY FRIEND

Today my bestest girl in the world turns 24. You know what that means? Party time. BONG

I was just sitting back, listening to some Tool, thinking about the Stephonderful one and I realized.. Hey...this chick is pretty cool ... I mean..I've always known that but today is different because it's her birthday. I don't think I have evuh met someone with so much passion for her friends and their wellbeing. This little red headed girl is the most selfless and flawless person I have ever met. :) She's awfully cute too.

I LOVE YOU MANG!!!
3BALLZ4LIFE
cuz 2 balls just aint enough

Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will.
I sure could use a vacation from this

2001-11-19T09:48:00.000-06:00

I am sitting by the side of 71st ave at 2 a.m., giggling as I stare up at the sky. The tails of Leonid's children race across the sky, somtimes vibrant in color. Tracing their lives through the ether in a final cosmic orgasm as they give themselves to oblivion. Heavenly bodies wrapped in blankets against the wind and cold, heads laid back as our eyes scan the night. Luminous orbs racing back and forth in our heads and above them as the universe manifests its splendor in an almost painful display beauty.

I sit giggling,chilled. Laughing because I am sitting by the side of the road having life affirmed by little spritzes of light that last less than a quarter of a second. Brilliant, fleeting, beautiful and if you blink you might miss it. Meteor is a metaphor for existance, so we laugh.

How much nicer it is to laugh with you guys.

2001-11-19T09:27:00.000-06:00

Argh. Ick. Ugh.

I belive I have a case of the Mondays today. What time do I get to go home again? Now?

I went and watched the Leonid meteor shower on Saturday night. It was nothing short of awesome. Some highlights of the night:
1. Seeing 7 billion meteors (well okay maybe not THAT many)
2. Steph doing the worm in her sleeping bag
3. Nonsense jokes and laughing from sheer lack of sleep
4. Steph doing a summersault in her sleeping bag

All in all I belive the night was a success. If my pictures turn out it will be even more worth it...but it was too windy so they'll probably end up being smeary dots if even that. *sigh* Oh well. I was going to go out again at 4 but being in a warm bed ended up sounding much better. It appears I didn't miss much anyhow.

We partied on Friday night. It was pretty fun. I had a good time for the most part - although there was one or three times I wanted to give a few people a knuckle sammich. BUT the nice girl in me wouldn't let that happen so now I just talk shit instead. MUAH HA HA HA HA HA

Definitely a case of the Mondays.

2001-11-14T17:27:00.000-06:00

Dear Wendyliciousness,
Will you please listen to my radio show tomorrow? I need tons of listeners. As many as we can get !
Please please please please please.

2001-11-14T12:28:00.000-06:00

BONG!

I be diggin the 3 ball, we need to do that more often, dawg.

What up G?

2001-11-14T11:37:00.000-06:00

3 BALLINZ THA THUG LIFE YO

Yo me and Steph be all hittin it up in here yo. Chiz-eck that Shiznit izout my sizista.

So anyway. Yep. 3 ballin it is the best. It's like... better than anything else. Although...she was buggin to try some 9 ball.

Hmmm...*sweat*... all this talkin about balls.

Out yo!

Mad props to Steph becuz she thinks this shiznit is mad funny whack just like me. We're just SICK like dat yo.

2001-11-13T16:58:00.000-06:00

I still don't have anything clever to say. And my head hurts again. My head didnt hurt earlier today but writing my paper for A Contemporary Pilgrimage to God made my fucking brain ache. Monastic life seems too similar to my current situation.

Is spending alot of time cleaning guns and planning escape routes a good sign?

Im reading She's Come Undone; Mister God, Its Anne; The Cloister Walk; The Books of Psalms and The Song of Songs(kinkisms in the bible). Too much deep thought of late, me thinks Im going to have to read something less mind consuming like a Pug book or get shitfaced/gimp soon.

So I figured to while away a moment or two posting on yer BLOG...or if you prefer GLOB.

Not the cheeriest post, but yah get what yah paid for and I ain't seen dime one.

2001-11-13T10:31:00.000-06:00

COOL TOOL

Check out http://www.archive.org/index.html to see what your favorite sites looked like in the old days. I found my old website from 3 years ago. I think I could entertain myself with this all day long!

BONG!

2001-11-12T23:30:00.000-06:00

All I wanted was a pepsi. Just one pepsi. Far from suicidal, but still i get them tendancies. Tee hee

So I just had to come on here and post my 2 cents, because ya know, thats about all I can afford. I also wanted to take this opportunity to thank Wendamoosky for haning with me last night. You are supa BONG babay!

Oh yeah, and I decided that for out new band GUY that we should title the first ep "Whoah, Hey, Whoah!" Now thats bong.

So I am trying to look up how to play guitar and the sites out there suck. I think im gonna have to swallow my pride and get me some lessons. Good thing i know guitar players, cheap!

Every flippen caption that was put onto the page made me about spit out my mountain dew. And i even fell outta my chair too.

My sisters fish has a name. His name is Jonas. Rock it.

I think since im getting old and stuff that it is time for me to retire. Hope everyone has as good of sleepy as i plan on gettin. Winky winky.

2001-11-12T22:10:00.000-06:00

LOATHING MONDAY

Hello. I'm fucktarded today. I totally screwed up this stupid BLOG...!! I typed a whole bunch and forgot to close a friggen tag and then POOF...the post was gone but everything else was all whacked out. Oh well. Here I am again...going to repeat myself.

So ANYWAY...like I was saying before I screwed it up.... Steph, Rory and I are starting a band. We talked about it last night. Of course we'd hafta make some preparations first like learning how to play instruments and I gotta learn how to sing. WE'LL WORK ON IT.

In order to keep you updated on the band progress I will keep you updated on Steph's progress. Just like she does on her site.

update Steph STILL does not know how to play guitar.
Me either. I can't sing either. Crap...this is gonna take longer than we thought.

I also mentioned in my previous post that disappeared that I have added captions to all the recent pictures on the photo page. Enjoy ....massive amounts of entertainment.

But anyway I'm going to bed. All this work has really made me tired.

2001-11-12T22:08:00.000-06:00

2001-11-11T14:14:00.000-06:00
This is my fish.

His name is Jonas.

2001-11-10T19:48:00.000-06:00

Dear Wendylicious,
I like to post on the blog. BLOG BLOG BLOG. Blog backwards if golb. That word is equally funny. GOLB GOLB GOLB. You name backwards if ydnew. Thats pronounced yid-new. So whats is up Yid-new? The dorms are dead because everyone left for the weekend. Those cheesedicks load up all their laundry and take it home so they can get it done for free. What a freakodaweek thing to do.

Jonny Lang is a motherhumper.

So there is this kid who does web radio who I call THE GOOB. Anyway THE GOOB is obese and usually smells bad, not to mention he has the personality of brainless wookie, anyway he is hardcore jealous of me and Kate's show. He is "my show only gets 2 or 3 listener peak" and it pisses him off in an anti-cool way. THE GOOB called in and said we should play good music and he sounded mad. I told THE GOOB where he could shove that bad attitude of his. Now THE GOOB hates me. Why should I care?
Actually I don't.
But it does inspire me to get more listeners than I've ever gotten before. Thursday Nov. 15 is our day. Tell your friends.

I opened my window to get fresh air, but it smells like poo outside. Not just poo, but rather a combination of cow ass, parmesian cheese, dirty socks, and poo. This concludes my post for today.

sincerely, kristi
k to the risti
right round baby right round like a record baby

2001-11-10T19:32:00.000-06:00

HAHA picture didnt work....so phht!

Wendell, I will post something clever when my brain doesnt hurt. Luvs yahs

DA NUG

2001-11-10T17:09:00.000-06:00

That picture betta work.

2001-11-10T17:08:00.000-06:00

Ok Ok

Johnny Lang is my cousin too, but we werent supposed to disclose that information due to the constant media frenzy that it creates when he is home for christmas. Like that one time he brought home his girlfriend, i wont say any names, but the house was media central. So not bong.

Check out this shiznit!

http://same4walls.freeservers.com/images/newpromo.jpg Its too damn huge to post!

I take everything back, he is not my cousin. And ill have my hair done good on christmas so when rollingstone shows up i can be on the cover. :Þ

2001-11-10T17:04:00.000-06:00

This is me.

Yeah I'm picking my nose. So what? Yeah I said it.

2001-11-10T17:01:00.000-06:00

Jonny Lang is my cousin.

2001-11-09T13:53:00.000-06:00

JONNY LANG COME OVA NOW

I wonder if he is related to Steph and Kristi..hmm... hard to tell...

The tar in the street starts to melt from the heat
And the sweats runnin' down from my hair
I walked 20 miles and I'm dragging my feet
And I'll walk 20 more I don't care

And I'll wander this world, wander this world
Wander this world, wander this world all alone

I'm like a ghost some people can't see
Others drive by and stare
A shadow that drifts by the side of the road
It's like I'm not even there

And I'll wander this world, wander this world
Wander this world, wander this world all alone

Well I've never been part of the game
The life that I live is my own
All that I know is that I was born
To wander this world all alone, all alone

Some people are born with their lives all laid out
And all their success is assured
Some people work hard all their lives for nothin'
They take it and don't say a word
They don't say a word

Sometimes it's like I don't even exist
Even God has lost track of my soul
Why else would he leave me out here like this
To wander this world all alone

And I'll wander this world, wander this world
Wander this world, wander this world all alone

PS Kristi: ... It's good to get a little sticky sometimes.

2001-11-09T00:37:00.000-06:00

My dearest Wendy,
You rock the hardest, sista. I too regret that you missed our radio show tonight. It was a success and I am triumphant. Alas, there is always next time. Sucker.

Is this thing on? oooh we got a hot mic here. Can I post whatever I want here? I wish I knew how to post pictures on here. Someone tell me how and I will post relentlessly like the mad dickens all the live long day. Today I went to Osco and bought a package of 48 generic sudafed tablets. They are called Suphedrine. They make me buzz a little. Then I go do radio shows and talk like Gizmo and sing like Cher. Go figure. 48 hits of fun for the low low price of $2.61 (buy now, while its on sale, kids). Suphedrine.....little...red....

W to the izzE
N to the izzD
Y to the....
Shit that doesn't work! Thats the anthem, get yer damn hands up. Ok smartie go to a party. Oh nenne oh nenne, nenne oh nenne oh nenne LA style in yo face! Does anyone remember Rumpshaker? "Does anyone remember laughter?" - Robert Plant (the man in the tight pants). ok kristi must go sleepey now. hang in there, everyone, tough-like, hang tough like the new kids on the block. Guess what, I spilled dr. thunder on my desk and all over my mouse. Thats good though right? To get the little ball all sticky.

let all the love in the world belong to you.
kristi

2001-11-08T22:26:00.000-06:00

DON'T LAUGH....

HAHAHAHAHA Okay I lied you can laugh all you want.

Kristi kicks ass. I feel stupid that I missed her radio show. Bad me! It sounded like a good one too. I am such a failure of a sista's sista.

I am still trying to scan pictures and crap. I think they'll be done by umm..hmm..maybe CHRISTMAS.

I bet Steph still can't play guitar ....but the main thing is - SHE TRIES.

I Love Nug .... and I'd love him even more if he contributed to my BLOG and such. What a slacker!!

2001-11-07T22:30:00.000-06:00

Dear Wendy,
Thank you for inviting me to your blog.
I like to say the word blog. Its a funny word. BLOG BLOG BLOG.
Do you know what I hate? Ford Tauruses! I think they are extremely ugly. Ford Tauruses suck. You know what else is ugly? Glenn Close! I can't stand that lady's movies! I also really dislike the color of poo. It doesnt matter if its brown or yellow or green; if its poo then I don't like its color.

Ford Tauruses smell bad.

2001-11-07T22:12:00.000-06:00

ANXIETY KILLS

I need to relax! Good ol' Department of Commerce is supposed to let me know on the 8th (TOMORROW!) if I am lucky enough to get an interview. I will feel so retarded if they don't want me. All of a sudden though - that doesn't seem as important as getting Josh a job at MDU. I swear...they better frickin hire him. Nothing sounds better at this point in time than having my honey bunches home with me again. Life would be back to the normal it was before this crap. It sucks to say that being alone is normal for me now.

AAAUUUGGGHHH!! Okay just had to let that out...

Oooh I am scanning in pics for the picture page! Yay! Who knows when I'll be done. I'm kinda lazy.

2001-11-05T10:35:00.000-06:00

I introduced myself to you the other night.
I don't introduce myself very often
I said Hello you probably don't want to know me
You're probably going to regret
that you ever heard my voice.

Aren't I repulsive?
Don't I give you the creeps
My inner soul is disgusting
I ruined it - I ruined me.

I cut myself wide open to you
And confessed to you my pain
Indifferent to what you would think
I showed you how black inside I am
I'm shameful.

Look at me I'm hideous
I can't even stand myself
It's the shame that makes me ugly
The shame and my mistakes.

I'm empty because I've fucked it up
I just decided to let you know
And I understand if you regret
Ever seeing the inside
I ruined it - I'm so disgusting.

2001-11-03T22:22:00.000-06:00

YEAH SO IT'S LIKE..MY BIRTHDAY AND STUFF

...Other than that...nothing is new! hehe I am now one year closer to death.

Thanks to everybody who showed up to my birfday party yesterday. It was an awesome shindig and we had lots of fun. I will be posting my pictures up shortly as soon as I get the gumption to scan them and stuff. *sigh* It's a hard hard world when you are as lazy as I.

The world didn't come to me and offer me a free trip to Jersey for Vulgarthon. However, Nug did give me tickets to OZZY and that about kicks the crap outta Vulgarthon anyday. I am so excited! Yee haa!

Oh yeah I gots pictures from Josh's birthday to put up too - thanks to Steph. What a pal I have in that woman. MUAH BABY!

So it's November now. It's another month and all that jazz. It was 65 degrees today. That kicked major ass. I hope it stays warm all friggen winter so Josh doesn't have to be deported and go down south to work. *sigh* CALGON TAKE ME AWAY!

It's Sunday tomorrow already. Why is it the week days totally CRAWL by and then the weekends are gone in a blink? I don't understand that concept. I wish it were the other way around, although I suppose if that were happening it would be because my weekends were miserable too. Lately, they've been pretty darn awesome. Thanks to a bunch of great friends. Much love to the great friends.

My dad and Jeanna came down to Bismarck to spend a few short hours with me on my birthday. That was totally bong. I wish I had more opportunities to see my family like that .But that stupid job and the rest of my "responsibilities" get in the way. Pfft. Stupid things.

Well anyway - I'm one year older. Possibly wiser. Who knows - hard to tell. All I know is this past year is one I won't be too sorry to forget.

2001-10-30T09:11:00.000-06:00

*SIGH*

I'm still mad about last night.

2001-10-29T20:08:00.000-06:00

SHORT WEEK

And I couldn't be happier. I think I desperately need these days off (Thurs. & Fri.) to get away from work and work on NUMERO UNO. By the way, I'm updating the Home page. You probably figured that out by now.

This design is seriously starting to BORE me.

Nobody wants to send poor Wendy to Jersey. Well..for Vulgarthon anyway. Maybe for other reasons, but not for the reason I'm interested in. :oÞ

On another note: I AM NOT MAKING ANY NOISE YOU STUPID @!#$!@#$% LANDLORD. YOU CAN KISS MY ASS IF YOU THINK YOU CAN TELL ME I WAS MAKING NOISE WHEN I'VE BEEN SITTING IN THE SAME SPOT FOR AN HOUR WORKING ON THE COMPUTER.

I swear, the day I get any respect from people I don't know will be the best day of my fucking miserable existence.

2001-10-26T11:59:00.000-05:00

IN ONE OF THOSE MOODS

I hopelessly, helplessly, wonder why
Everything gotta change around me
I’d tell it to your face
But you lost your face along the way
And I’d say it on the phone
If I thought you were alone
Why do things have to change
- Hopeless by Train

~~~~~
So what's up? Not much here. Just hanging out - you know how it is.
Felt like updating again but there isn't a whole lot to update on.
Life just keeps moving on while I feel like I'm stuck in the same spot I was in last week.
Or last month.
The only thing I can cling to is my slim fascination with hope
and my stringy belief in it.

2001-10-23T11:17:00.000-05:00

VULGARTHON - OMG

Okay okay okay. I got all kinds of excited today. Vulgarthon tickets go on sale on my BIRTHDAY at noon EST. MY MOTHAFREAKIN BIRTHDAY I really think that is a sign that I am supposed to be there. Check the previous post for more information. Kevin Smith, I am coming over. I gotta. I gotta. I gotta.

That brings me back to the Send Wendy to Jersey fund discussed earlier. The calls are pouring in with generous people who want to help send a poor girl from North Dakota into the motherland that is ViewAskew. I could only hope that in addition to seeing Kevin Smith, that Jason Mewes would be there as well.

Can you say HEAVEN!? Oh yeah baby!

So anyway - these tickets are a necessity. A must have.

Any ideas on how to get to Jersey? Anybody?

Email me your ideas - or better yet - mail me some CASH.

BONG!

2001-10-22T11:14:00.000-05:00

ROCKIN' THA SUBURBS

So what's new? I'll tell you what's new. I NEED (need is the key word here) to go to vulgarthon. Yeah that's right. I need to see Kevin Smith and all his intellectual goodness.

The Shindig: Vulgarthon 2002
The Date: January 7th, 2002
The Locale: Red Bank JERSEY.
More info HERE

Umm yeah. It's time to fire up the Send Wendy to Jersey Fund. Now accepting donations. Be kind - send a friend to Jersey.

BONG!

2001-10-20T15:37:00.000-05:00

WHOOT WHOOT

Ok, so i never tell you guys how bong you are. You are like my family dudes and i love you. Last night was hella fun, i wonder how much trouble we can get into tonight :)

Happy Birthday Stewey!

Just think Wendays birthday is only 14 days away! Tee hee.

Love ya guys

2001-10-18T16:13:00.000-05:00

OKAY, I THINK THIS IS IT

I think I have to do some shopping tonight. I can't concentrate on anything else! ACK!

2001-10-17T10:58:00.000-05:00

SNOOGANS

Steph, I love you mang!! (K)

DROOL
Jason Mewes is adorable. I need to meet this guy. I need I need!! Look at him!

DOUBLE DROOL

So anyway. I can thank Steph for giving me the URLs to many Jay fan sites. I had no idea there were so many out there. I wonder if he ever browses the web. Ahhh he's probably too busy. I would like to say MAN I SAW YOUR LATEST MOVIE THREE TIMES. How's that for showing the love? Huh? THREE TIMES. Okay, going off like a Jr. High girl now. I must settle down.

ONE MORE THING
<><
Look!! It's a JESUS FISH.

BONG!!

2001-10-16T17:07:00.000-05:00

Otay, The scanner is worken, so i figure im gonna try to stick a picture up on here and stuff. If this works this is my tribute to Josh's birthday. I love you Wenday and Joshuass.
I hope that this works. :)

I dont understand this blogger schtuff!!! On this page, the good old edit page the picture shows up, but when i goto the site and look at it, there is no picture! ARGH! What i did was translate one of Josh and Wendays favorite songs, but i dont think that the lyrics are appropriate for this site. So I put them on mine! Tee hee. Check them out guys.

2001-10-15T21:04:00.000-05:00

HOLY CRAP
I'm fuggin bored. I can't think of anything to do but shop. I want to go to Target and WalMart because I'm sure there is something there that I desperately need. I just need it so bad I forgot what it was! Hmm.. yeah that's it! Temporary amneisa due to necessity of something. I could use a few candles, maybe some socks... umm.. some tea and a hair dryer. I should really write that down before I forget again.

Oh yeah, and I need these shoes. Only $139.00. Hmm..maybe I don't need them as bad as I thought. But they sure are some BONGNACIOUS shoes. Sweet assed shoes. Yep. Definitely. NEED THEM.

2001-10-15T18:32:00.000-05:00

Ok now. I still cant think of anything compelling to post. My bad. I will just babble up the board for a while.

I took that quiz of yours and didn't do as well as i thought that i would. Not bong. Not even like a fraction of bong. I don't even know if you can fraction bong, but you know what im going to fraction that bong. I think it would probably be best scored as the square root of bong. Or maybe even negative bong. Best bong yet though is negative bong. Now that's just bad.

Even if i did score a square root of bong to the 10th power on the quiz it doens't mean that i dont love Wendamoosky. Shes my snoogins. MUAH!

2001-10-15T16:06:00.000-05:00

YOU ONLY THINK YOU KNOW ME

For those of you I haven't spammed yet with the link, go take my quiz. Steph started it. I'm only copying her. AGAIN.

Check it out HERE

BONG!

2001-10-15T13:10:00.000-05:00

MY SO CALLED LIFE

Hmm... nothing interesting going on lately. Joshua's birthday is on Saturday the 20th. More details soon.

I was shocked -well maybe not shocked- more like, delighted to read more gossip about Freddy Durst today. Wes Borland quit the band. What the crap!!? I remember seeing them in concert.. for like 45 minutes. Long story. Anyhooo ...

Out of all the jobs I posted for, so far I have received response from one. Atlantic Ad Group in Chicago Illinois. The only problem is - it's a 5 minute preliminary interview IN CHICAGO. Yeah. Not likely. (N) Now accepting donations for the Get Wendy A New Job Fund.

*crossing my fingers that Sandy will be able to come to Bismarck this weekend"

Have you ever tried to "rediscover" a love for vegetables? I am trying and MAN is it ever tough! I like celery, carrots and radishes, but not enough to munch on them day after day! Fruits are another story. I cannot eat fruits - icky!

So anyway... that's my day so far in a nutshell. Hopefully I'll be able to update the home page soon. Gotta change that puppy around every once in awhile.

2001-10-13T00:12:00.000-05:00

**MOTHAFUCKIN HAPPY DANCE**

I dunno if it was brilliance or what but HOOOORAY I figured out the stupid archive problem. I am a certified GODDESS

2001-10-12T23:37:00.000-05:00

!@#$$%^@#$!@#$!!~!!

AAAUGGGHHH!!

Okay some things pissing me off here:

1. Somehow this stupid bleep bleepin BLOG isn't keeping my archives. I'm angry. RAR!! I am thinking I need to ditch this POS and get a message board like Steph. Simply because I am a follower .. .I am a freeking sheep.

2. BAAAAAA

3. I have run into a roadblock with this whole design crap. I can't figure out what I want to do next or how I want to do it or ANYTHING. *sigh* *pray* ACK ACK ACK. Eventually this thing will be finished.

4. Maybe by "finished" i mean TRASHED. Ka-put! Erased!

5. Numbering things is so much fun. I can't tell you how much fun I have had with numbered lists more than once.

6. I was all ranting and raving and then N*Sync starts playing on my Winamp and I hafta laugh at myself for downloading whatever song that is. I'm all cheered up now. Thanks N*Sync!

7. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

8. *slightly embarrassed*

I downloaded Flash today (whoops) and I think I might be able to figure the flipping thing out someday. So that means there is a pretty good chance this site may look spiffy sometime in the future. How's that for commitment huh?

Oh yeah, Rachael I'll go shopping ANY FREAKING DAY. Just let me know when and where and I'm all totally there. :) Heh heh heh. I mean, I'll be glad to watch you shop as long as you make me leave my checkbook and other assorted methods of payment in the car. BONG!

The best song I downloaded today: Getaway by Train. Those guys that sing Drops of Jupiter.... This song is so awesome. I am fucktarded and have the Winamp set on "random" so everytime it moves on to another song I gotta open it up and move it back to Getaway. OBSESS. Yes. I do - but it's a great song and I suppose you just gotta hear it to believe me. I'd post lyrics but that would just make it easier for you not to download the song. So do it. DO IT. Woah look at me getting all aggressive and crapola. Oh yeah and then you gotta listen to If I Had It All by Dave Matthews Band. If you don't do it, I'll make you do it eventually. Trust me.

The best part of that song:
If I had It all
I'd fuck it up.

<--- I think this chick is gonna be my new logo. Brought to you by Divide By Zero fonts. Isn't she cute?

2001-10-12T18:21:00.000-05:00

Wassss up lady..
Yeah I finally got a chance to get on and say a little somethin about my bestest friend in the whole wide freaking messed up world..
And here it goes.. WEndy is the funniest most honest person I have ever known.. and I think that today should be the day that everyone is nice to this little chickodee.. even the boss....

Love ya lady... lets shop... rachy

2001-10-11T23:16:00.000-05:00

UPDATE

I have updated my poetry page so it sorta goes along with the rest of the theme. I need to remind ya that this page looks ridiculous with a resolution of 800x600 or anywhere near that. I will be changing my photography page soon. I was thinking about creating 2 parts to this site, one a "professional" part where I can put stuff up like a portfolio or whatever and then the other side my personal site. Hmm... I dunno. If I did that I'd want some kickass FLASH stuff, but I don't have that program or know how to use it but crappy it would be sweet to learn. Major bonalongadingdong.

A SITE YOU NEED TO SEE: Steph's Site
She's got a kickass message board... I think I shoulda done that instead of a bloody BLOG but I guess you can't have the whole freakin world - can ya?! Anywhoo...

It's late and if I don't go to bed now, I'll be up all night long pulling my hair out about the next design I'm gonna do. I gotta figure out this resolution crap. For anybody who cares, it looks AWESOME on my monitor. :) Good night everybody. Whoever you are.